reflecting.

This year has been absolutely amazing, I’m not going to say it’s been perfect but it’s been amazing to be able to see another year and grow so unapologetic! This Sunday I will be 23, which isn’t a big deal to most but to me it’s such a big deal. Just reflecting over these past few years and seeing the woman God has created is so mind blowing. I’m far from perfect, I have so many flaws and there are times I feel insecure about things other people love about me! This past year has taught me so much about myself as a woman, mother and partner! I’m constantly working on myself, getting to a place where I love myself unconditionally and praticing self care. 

So many great things are transpiring in my life,  I’m so excited about everything but I’m a little overwhelmed by God’s faithfulness! I’ve been beating myself up a lot lately, not because I feel like I’m not doing enough, but because I feel like I could be doing so much more! I’m so used to being in school, working and tackling on so many different projects that now I feel like all I’m doing is just working! My mind tends to get so wrapped up in accomplishing all of my goals, that I tend to overwhelm myself, when I just need to take a break and just breathe!  

Sometimes life just gets in the way of things and you’re forced to overthink your life and goals, when God already has everything figured out for you! Lately I’ve been turning to prayer and asking God for guidance and strength over everything in my life. I’ve also been getting in touch within myself and reevaluating my thinking and changing my perspective on things I no longer need to stress about! I guess when things get to becoming a little too overwhelming for me, I might go on a social media detox and just put my phone on DND! 

But other than that, I’ve made it my goal to set some self goals for myself and I’m going to make sure I’m focusing more on taking care of myself and just relaxing before the fall semester starts again! 💜

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Unashamed + Unapologetic 

In my previous blog post, I discussed how this past summer I’ve been getting in touch within my inner self and working towards the woman God wants me to become! I’ve came to realize that every since I’ve been more aware of the toxic things + people I allowed into my life, I wasn’t the happiest! Actually, I was really angry that I allowed such things + individuals to drain me mentally! Now that I’ve come to terms with getting rid of anything that cost me my peace of mind, I’ve become so much happier within myself! I’m learning to love myself more and more each day, & refuse to have people who don’t respect or love me as well. 

It was definitely time to break free from those things + people who didn’t feed my soul love and positivity! I feel more stress free and positive about everything! I’ve decided that I’m going to always put God + myself first in every relationship I encounter. I’ve noticed when I go astray from God, my life ends up being a complete mess, I get distracted easy by things I know isn’t good for me mentally + physically! I guess I was just tired of the same ole things and needed God to check me and by doing that, I was able to connect within myself and acknowledge that God is in control of my life! I’m also a believer of “you’re what you attract”, and I only want to attract beautiful + positive individuals! We’re in control of our happiness, & by saying that happiness is a choice and I decided to choose happiness! 

If you ever get to a point where you feel like your soul is being completed drained by those who you love, it’s time to reevaluate yourself and your surroundings! Just because you love people, doesn’t mean you should keep them in your life, this enables you to be everything you need to become when you’re constantly giving them a million and one chances to get their lives together for them! This also brings you down right along with them if they’re fighting battles within themselves, that they tend to overlook and would rather drag everyone down with them!!! I know I’ve had a really hard time trying to remove myself from people I love, thinking they would change but they only ended up getting worser! That’s when you have to come to terms and tell yourself you CANNOT change anyone, that’s something they have to do on their own! You can only be positive and hope that they see the light at the end of the tunnel and sometimes people would rather live in darkness before they come to the other side! I have had conversations with individuals who I felt was completely dumb, but now I accepted the fact that people only grow on their own level and that’s okay! I just don’t have to sit around and wait, but instead I can simply move forward with my own life! 

Sometimes it’s nothing we can do and I personally don’t think removing yourself from things that doesn’t make you flourish is giving up, it’s simply you choosing to love yourself more and not settling for anything lesser than what you deserve! 💜

Flourishing. 

After spring semester ended, I have found myself doing a lot of reevaluating and getting in touch within my inner self. I’m so used to working and going to school non stop and not actually being able to do a lot of self care. I never really took the time to actually do many things for myself because I’m always so busy trying to get my shit all the way together and not realizing I need to actually take care of myself mentally + physically!

A few things I’ve been doing to take care of myself mentally + physically!

1. I’ve been talking to God a lot, reading a lot of different inspirational blogs, watching my favorite YouTube channels and just spending alone time with myself! It’s been working and I’m starting to see a lot of amazing results! Even if it’s only for 15-30 minutes a day, get in touch with yourself! It works, it helps and it’s so worth it for your mental health.

2. This year I have been transitioning and letting go of anything negative that distracts my personal growth! I’m mentally exhausted already  and I know for a fact I don’t need anyone around me that drains my spirit! When we want better for ourselves, we do better right? Indeed! I used to feel bad for letting go of people who I deeply cared for, but my mental health is way more important than being around toxic individuals.

Trying to keep myself sane from life chaos:

This year has also been very challenging in a good and bad way, 80% good though! I do have my moments where I have to check myself and pray to God for mental strength because within a blink of an eye I could lose everything I’ve worked so hard for by giving up because I’m not trusting in Gods timing! I know it’s so easy getting caught overlooking your personal growth because you don’t see the results right away, but I know that’s good trying to teach me patience! 

For some strange reason, I’ve been experiencing a great amount of gratitude and joy! Not in a bad way, but in a very good way! I’m definitely a work in progress, I mean we all are! Some days are better than most and some days are so bad I don’t even want to imagine what the next day might feel like. 

But, God is literally the answer to everything, whenever you feel like everything you’ve been working so hard for is going unnoticed, just pray and trust in God! Regardless of the things I might not understand at this very moment, God is definitely in control of every aspect in my life and sometimes you have to allow him to do what he needs to do in your life without complaining so much! 

Hello June.


Hello June,

It’s been a few weeks since my last post, & I must say that I’ve been really busy working, being a mother and a partner! My summer has officially started, & I’m beyond excited to see what this summer will bring! There’s so many things I want to do, places I want to see and new food places I want to try! Sometimes I feel like we need more than 24 hours in a day, sometimes! I just feel like the days and weeks are getting shorter, then next thing you know the summer will be over and I’ll be returning to school this fall. But for now, I’m just enjoying life and all of the things life tends throw at us! But anywho, just wanted to give you guys a little update on life! 💜

Trying to find balance in between life’s chaos.

Lately I’ve been so distance with everything and everyone due to life’s chaos, trying to finish my last semester of college successfully and graduating with my class! When I say this semester was the hardest semester I’ve ever had to endure, I mean it was so stressful to the point I felt like dropping out! Everything was hitting me left and right and I felt like I didn’t have any type of control over my life at that moment, I wanted to just give up and never look back! I felt so uninspired, unmotivated, my focus was all off and on the wrong things! 

I needed a break, but being so prideful I decided to suck everything up and continue on my path to success. I finished this semester with 1 A, 2 B’s & 1 C, look at God! All of the crying and negative talk I was doing didn’t help me in no way shape or form, until I had to literally sit myself down and have that mental talk with myself the last month before the semester was over! It was either you’re going to do it, or be what everyone said you couldn’t be and at that point I never wanted to feel like that again! Period! The devil couldn’t win, because this is my life and I was in complete control of it! 

I guess I was just at a point in my life where I felt like I was losing who I was and what I stood for as a woman that I let every little thing hinder me from accomplishing one of my many goals in life. & man when I say I thought I experienced worser times than that, nothing else compares to the crazy thoughts running through my mind a few months ago! I felt hopeless and helpless, nothing anyone said was comforting to me! One of the hardest things to experience when you’re feeling down and out, is the discomfort from those you love! I had so much support from my family, man and friends but nothing they were saying wasn’t getting through to me! I had it already figured out in my mind, I was ready to just give up on everything! 

I guess you’re wondering why would you give up the last semester of your two year degrees, but at that moment I was too overwhelmed and didn’t want to physically and mentally face success! Which sounds weird, but I was scared of completing one of my top goals in life. The most important thing I have learned throughout this whole ordeal is to always trust in God, no matter what you’re facing in life! & also that there’s always power in reclaiming your joy and happiness! 

Sometimes it’s just best to be open and mindful of the things you’re facing and knowing that you’re not alone! It’s okay to seek help from others, if you have people in your life that you love “vice versa”, you should trust them with your deepest fears or concerns instead of shutting them out when you’re feeling down and out! I know I might’ve been selfish at the time, but I know that they only want what’s best for me and if I can’t see that in myself then there’s nothing they can do but to support and love me! 

Moral to the story:


NEVER GIVE UP, EVER! 💜

XoXo 💋

You’re a reflection of your children, be that light for them! 

Parents start teaching your children the importance of independence and being responsible adults! There’s no way in hell your grown ass child should be staying with you, if they’re not doing anything productive in life! Smoking, drinking and fighting should be the least of their worries if they’re not out here working, going to school or doing something productive with their time! I’m raising a young queen and a king, I’ll be damn if my children aren’t successful! You’re a reflection of your child, & what you allow to happen in your home is what they’ll be doing outside of it! Period! This shit starts at home, FIRST!

2016 Graduate. 🎓🎉❤️


I just want to thank God and all of the people who has genuinely been there supporting and uplifting me since day one on this journey! Every obstacle I have endured, have been on faith and taking the next steps to not only better myself as an individual but as a woman! I didn’t understand my purpose, but I knew I had one! This has been one of the most happiest, draining and emotional yet rewarding journey for me! I can’t tell you how many times I dropped out of college in my head, because I lost count lol. This clearly wasn’t the most easiest thing to do, but I knew it was worth it! I learned so much and I still have so much to learn! I know this might not be special or a big deal to most, but to me this is huge! Being the first in my immediate family to graduate college was something I’ve never thought I’d experience, especially with all of the odds, statistics and things the media portrays about young mothers and etc! This isn’t the end for me, just the beginning of something so beautiful. I also want to give a big shout to the love of my life, thank you for being my number one supporter, pushing and motivating me! Thanks for all of those long sleepless days/nights holding our children down so I can study and do my homework! You put your dreams on hold, so I can chase my dreams! I love you in all ways, always! 🎓❤️