Today I just wanted to share a few things that’s been on my mind these past few days. If you’ve been with me since the beginning of my journey, you can see that there’s been so much joy and then there’s been so much pain. As I’m sitting in my tub filled with bubbles, a glass of wine and candles, I can’t help but to thank God for being so faithful + gracious! I remember a time where I felt as though I was drowning in my own negative thoughts + feeling as though some things were way beyond me and now realizing that if God feels as though I’m worthy, why shouldn’t I feel the same way?
Reflecting back a few years ago.
I remember not feeling happy + worthy! This type of happiness didn’t have anything to do with others, but it had a lot to do with me! I’ve always been everyone’s favorite, but deep down within myself, I pretty much hated a lot of things within myself! I’ve always felt beautiful on the outside, but it was the things on the inside that made me feel the ugliest! I hated how shy I was, I hated how quite I was, & these are just a few things I can name off. But you get the point, hopefully you do…
I remember getting to a point where I knew the journey of self-love + healing was very important + vital to my well being! I remember breaking down to my teacher on how I was ready to turn a new leaf, & begin living a more healthy + happy life. When I finally decided to register for college, that’s when the journey of self-love + healing began. I started reading more books, breaking outside of my comfort zone, meeting new people and finding new ways to love myself, unconditionally. I think the amazing thing about this journey was the fact that I can reflect on the things that was keeping me in darkness, to the light God began to shine into my life NOW!
I’ve also noticed that we can be our worse enemies at times, but then again you can start the journey of self-love + healing and become a healthy version of yourself. For me journaling has become my best friend these last few years, sometimes I would just write the things that’s been on my mind and not post them just for my own personal reasons. I also realized that there’s no such thing as missed blessings, because the things we miss is only learning experiences for us to get it right next time and the blessing is going to be BIGGER. That’s why when I decided to create “Unashamed Queens” it was to help other women who has experienced darkness but also needed a sisterhood where they can come be supported, celebrated and loved! That was my dream, & it’s finally beginning to manifest itself by the grace of God!
Often times we find ourselves stressing about the negative things that’s happening in our lives, without shedding light on the positive things that’s transpiring in our lives! I remember complaining to God about things I knew was in my control, that I allowed them to happen and then I went on to asking him to fix these things when it was something I had to fix within myself! Not saying God isn’t a healer but in order to be healed, you also have to be willing to do the work as well! So just an FYI to anyone wanting to be healed, God will heal you as long as you’re fully ready to be healed and filled with his grace! ❤
How has your journey of self-love been going? What tips can you give someone that’s transitioning to their journey of self-love?