As I’m reflecting on these last 12 days of 2016, I can’t help but to thank God for giving me a second chance to set the tone and end my year with a clutter free mind and heart! I feel like that’s probably the most rewarding and amazing thing I have done for myself this year is to forgive myself + people who have wronged me in the past and simply letting all of that unnecessary stress GO! There’s no more room in my life to be holding onto anything that’s associated with the past, I’ve made room for new beginnings and I can’t wait to see what this new journey has in store for me!
looking back a year ago…
I could never imagine myself having this abundance amount of peace, happiness and joy, I felt like I was in a good space but I could’ve been in an even better space if I knew how powerful and freeing forgiveness feels! It felt like I was in a bubble that was constantly being scratched at and opening up like a scab that you was trying to heal but the scab ended up bleeding every time you decided to mess with it! I knew what my triggers was and like a fool I allowed Satan to bring me back into a dark place, I knew wasn’t healthy for me! God has helped me find ways to release any stress and that’s simply praying and not reacting to things that I have 100% control over!
Sunday Service with the Potters House
Bishop T.D Jakes talked about how everything in life is a choice and it’s up to you to decide what it is you want your life to consist of! Just hearing that made me feel amazing because it wasn’t anyone else’s fault for me holding on to something, I knew I had 100% control over! It’s my choice if I want to stay stuck in that same bitter state of mind and allowing me to be in complete darkness!Or was I going toughing up and use that same energy to pick myself up and move forward in light!
Another thing I’ve learned this year is..
Life is going to continue to go on, whether you want it to or not!! So you might as well figure out exactly what it is you’re going to carry along with you or what are you going to get rid of! Is you going to run from every single problem? Or are you going to face your problems and insecurities heads on? Are you going to continue to be the victim or are you going to choose victory? Whatever you decide to choose, make sure it’s something you’re going to be happy with in the end!
I’m just thankful I’m in a so much better, healthier and peaceful place in my life and I can only thank God for getting me through the things I knew I probably could never get over in life! I feel as though I can share my testimony with other individuals like myself and help them through their healing process and finally being able to see light again! I personally know how difficult forgiving is but the reward of having an abundance amount of peace and joy is so much better than having a heart that’s filled with hate!
Moral to the story
God is capable of changing you on the inside and out at any giving moment! You’re capable of healing, forgiving and loving again! You don’t have to be down, miserable or pissed about something because It’s all a choice we all are capable of changing! You can see rainbows if that’s what you want to see, you can see love if that’s what you want to see, you can see happiness if that’s what you want to see and etc!! You’re not only limited to being miserable, you’re limitless and can be anything you want to be at any giving time!! ❤️