I wouldn’t say my life is all peaches and cream, because it’s not! I’ve had my share of good and bad days, sometimes I have more bad days than I have good days. I mean who hasn’t, I’m human right? Well about seven to six years ago, I didn’t think my life would turn out the way it did. I was so hurt, damage, broken and all of the above. It got to a point where I just wanted to be alone and crawl right under a rock, I was so emotionally broken. I had everything I wanted, but I still wasn’t happy! Like how can a person who has everything be so unhappy and miserable?
Seeing that I was so unhappy and miserable didn’t really do anything for me, besides bring me down and cause me to miss out on so many great opportunities in life. It took for me to have my first breaking point and ask myself is this really how you want to live your life sad, depressed, broken, bitter and angry? Do the people who genuinely love you deserve to be treated with so much disrespect, because you’re too afraid of being let down? What are you going to do when they leave, because they don’t deserve the way you’re treating them? Do you want to be lonely for the rest of your life? Is this really what you want? The answer was definitely no!
That saying “hurt people, hurt people” is true because that’s exactly what I was doing to the people who just wanted to love me unconditional. Me being who I was then wouldn’t allow others to come into my life and make things better because all I knew how to do was push people away because all I felt like they were going to do was leave me anyways. It took for me to almost lose everything and everyone, to finally realize that I had everything I’ve ever wanted right in front of me all along.
Looking back on my experience I can definitely say I’ve came along way mentally and emotionally. I feel like you can have everything in the whole world, but if you don’t genuinely love yourself than it means absolutely nothing! Being able to live and walk in my truth and acknowledge my hurt was so worth it, because I feel like I was rebirthed and was able to get another chance to be the person I was trying so hard to become. Having a strong support system got me through everything I was facing and knowing I wasn’t alone made me enjoy the journey even more.
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